i slam the door
(the thousandth time)
and turn to survey the emptiness
of
my heart
the one who filled it is gone
leaving a trace
i cannot deny
cannot
ignore
i close my eyes
the other is there
but not
and i scream
i walk to the door
and whisper the name
and no answer comes
i crack the door and whisper again
and the silence rages
against my
soul
as if a gale of desperation
i throw open the door
and there, right there, is the other's heart
closed
locked
shuttered
and
i call out
but no answer comes
i scream,
and the lighted windows mock me
still
no answer comes
it is farther away than i remember it
the heart across the way
i know
the other is there
and i cry out
but no answer comes
anger rises inside me like a gall
and i slam the door
pull closed
the shutters
and rage
still
no answer comes
my heart echoes
with my screams
and only the other's voice
is there
echoing
and i whimper
the name
i look about
at the emptiness
and whisper
the name
i peek out the shutters
and the other is there
brightly lighted
shuttered
barred
locked
unwelcoming
warm
to all
but me
i crawl to the door
and crack it
only for the raging silence to tear
it from my grasp
and i raise my voice against the silent storm
calling
crying
but no answer comes
i stagger into the silence
leaning against its' fierce caress
and
scream for the other
still
no answer comes
only the muffled voice of rage
leaking about the shutters
seeping
into
feeding
the silence
and i am swept away
my arm outstretched
crying
screaming
knowing
no
answer comes
